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1/28/2004
Another sleepless night. It is 3:56 a.m. on the 29th. I just completed another lesson in my
book. I hope to do more than just one lesson tomorrow.
I just have to remember to turn off the T.V. and open the book.
Oh! A special not today. I uploaded a lot of pictures for everyone's viewing pleasure.
Just click on the Pics link on the Navigation bar. They are pretty small right now. But I hope to put in a link
below each picture to a full size picture. Also I plan to add Captions to each picture. I just got tired of the
Pics page being bare.
Well, I guess that is it for now. Later.
1/27/2004
Here I am again. It is actually 1/28/2004 at 3:49 a.m. Another sleepless night.
I tried to go to bed almost 2 hours ago but I can't seem to shut the mind down. So I am up trying to get some work done...
if that is what you want to call it.
I finally put my real face on the homepage. I figure no one is really reading this blog but the people
I tell. So I hope you three enjoy it.
I haven't been doing much reading lately. It seems like I have been very tired lately. It could
be because I haven't been sleeping well. Anyway, by the time I get up to read, the wife comes home and then the house
is filled with noise. I would love to go down to the basement to read, but I would really like to have a computer with
me to practice what I read. I could take my laptop down, but then in 3 hours I would have to come back up to recharge.
I need to finish this book and move on to the others. It is necessary.
I have been checking out money making opportunities on the internet. There is not a lot of legitamate
opportunities out there. But I found a few I could explore. I don't know what else I could do. I really
wish I could find a job, but no one is hiring. It kind of makes you feel worthless when no one will hire you.
They will hire someone with no experience and most likely dumb as a stump, but they won't hire me, a person with personal
and office skills. Life just doesn't add up sometimes.
Well, I guess that is about it for now. Later.
1/23/2004
Well, I have been doing pretty good at the reading. The past couple of days, I have read over 2 chapters
on very technical stuff in Macromedia Flash MX. It is very interesting. But to concentrate, all I do is go down
to the basement and read at the desk the wife put down there. It was quiet and I couldn't hear one gunshot from my father's
westerns. Also, I started thinking of my reading as my job. It will eventually pay off... I hope.
Well, thats about it for now. Later.
1/20/2004
Well, I am still feeling worthless. I looked for a job on the internet tonight. There is nothing
I am qualified for available.
Why can't I find a fucking job? I have had steady work for 8 years. And except for a one month
period, I have had steady employment for 12 years. And I can't find a job. Why? Is it because I am fat?
Is it because of a past record? I don't know. I wish I knew. It is really pissing me off. All of the
jobs in america are going foreign. 9/11 made more of an impact on america than anyone would have ever thought.
I don't know what to do.
Should I continue to read and learn about stuff to do on the computer? Because I will never be able
to do anything with it unless I move to a big city. I need to make a plan and stick to it. I don't know what else
to do. I also need to cut out the TV time. It is time that can be used for something more important.
My life has been a big waste of time for the past year and a half. I haven't done one thing to improve
myself since the lay off. It is time to get down to business. I need to work 8 hours a day on my reading and anything
else that could earn me some money. That is all there is to it. Time to get serious!
Later.
1/18/2004
Hello all. I don't know if anyone is actually reading this, but to be safe, I'll say hello to all
you people potentially reading this.
Well, tonight, I tried to look for a job by going through all of the newspapers that list jobs on the net.
And I realized two things.
1. Even if I could find a job that I am qualified for, I can't afford to drive 50 to 60 miles one
way to work there.
and...
2. Even if I could find a job, none of them would be at night, so I couldn't work them because I would
have no one to watch my Dad.
So what the hell am I supposed to do? The only way I see out of this situation is to start my own
business. But then I live in an economically depressed area. So no one has any money to invest, much less buy
anything from me so I can make a living.
Should I do the comic, the flash movies, the programming, or the Sci-fi writing? What is faster and
will make the money for me?
Well, thats it for now. Later
1/11/2004
Well, I along with just about everyone else have been sick lately. So I haven't gotten a lot done
lately.
I am happy to say that I am a genius and was able to fix me friend Tom's computer. I just had to reduce
the processor speed a little and it worked fine after that. He was very happy with the results. But the housecall
would have been worth $200-$250 if I was working for someone doing it.
I have just been so tired lately. And not because I have been sick. It seems like every day
I say, "I gotta get out of here." But I don't know where here is.
Well, I guess that's it for now. Later.
1/6/2004
I am so sick of my life. I don't know why I am even writing this. I don't even think anyone
is reading this. Why would they? Its not like I lead an interesting life or anything.
Well, on with the story.
I finished Chapter 8 in my Flash book today. Only nine more to go. Then, I have to read the
Dreamweaver book and the VB.NET book. Oh well. Its not like I have anything to do, like a job or anything.
My day is totally unproductive otherwise.
Well, I guess I better get back to my hectic lifestyle.
Later.
1/4/2004
Sorry everyone. My computer took a crap on me and I had to reinstall everything.
Not much to report today. I had a pretty good New Year's except for having to pay a manditory $10
tip for our meal even though there was only three of us. I will never go there again.
Other than that, not much has happened. I want to finish my Flash book and get started on my Dreamweaver
book soon. After I am done with this, I will be reading... or at least trying to read.
Our little town is dying. I found out that Taco Bell went out of business on Christmas Eve.
No more Chalupas. What kind of town is this?
Well, TTYL.
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